A New Year......

  So it's been awhile.  Thanks to A New Moo I decided it was time to write something down.  Now I have to figure out what.
   Mom is still getting on her feet.  Had a few set backs.  Had a scare with my Dad that really freaked me out. They asked me what they could do for me for Christmas since I had done so much for them, and I asked them to "Get back to LIVING and stay that way."  Then my mom went into the hospital Christmas day so.... lol but she is back home and doing better and working on getting back on her feet so I guess they are trying.

   Me?  Well I am not doing much of anything.  Many of you who know me knew me from my days in the paranormal field.  Radio shows, websites, teams, chats.  The other half of you know me from Stargate and Sci-Fi stuff.  I stopped with the paranormal, and now it seems I have lost an interest in the Sci-Fi area.
     Not that I do not still love it, it is just the politics people have started to play have reminded me of a time when my mother was dying and the paranormal field stomped on me and left me for dead.  It is a time I do not wish to repeat or be reminded of.  And every cause has its limitations.  There is only so much that we can do until there is nothing more to do but wait.  So I am waiting for my next inspiration to come.  It is taking awhile.

    In the meantime, I watch tv, take care of my parents, and dream about all the things I want to do.  That's the hard thing.  Knowing that if you had done one thing differently in your life, waited a few more months, said yes to some offer, that you would be in a completely different place right now.  And seeing those around you who did not get caught in the same net as you moving forward it hard to swallow.  And even harder to do so graciously.   
    
    Before I forget, had a few other family incidents.  My sister had to have emergency gall bladder surgery because it was about to burst, and she came out fine.  A week later, her husband had to have his colon resected because they found malignant cancer cells.  And a little over a week after that my sister went back in to have a gastric sleeve put in, which is working well.  She is so happy she has already lost 40 lbs.
    My younger brother got into fishing, BIG TIME, so that is all he got for Christmas was fishing stuff.  James has his own store now, for about 7 months now, so that has been interesting.  And my older brother has gotten some interesting offers about his music.  Brandon moved a few houses down from me, so it is like old times.  And he had a kid.  Most beautiful little girl! Ok I think that is about it for the "What has happened since last time I wrote" section.

     I, on the other hand, have no big news.  The highlight of my year, 2012, was going to DragonCon.  AWESOME!!!  I know you all heard about it from me and saw the pictures.  I so want to go again but do not know if that is possible this year.  It cost us about a grand, but was worth it.  But we are still getting caught up from THAT trip so who knows.  James and I said we would be eloping at the beginning of this year, but don't know if or when that will happen.  We ARE getting married people, so do not freak out.  Just still working on the details.  

     See? Nothing interesting..  Not one single thing. Need to change that.  My New Years Resolution was "No More Excuses".  So we will see.  Wish you all a good year and the best of luck and love.  

Speak Geek!

First of all, I am a geek, a nerd, whatever you want to call be and damn proud of it! #speakgeek!  

 Hello fellow Stargate and Stargate Universe fans.  As you all know, I have been a part of this movement since the start.  We have had bumps in the road, sure, but we have all stuck together.  This is why it saddens me to see the movement slowing to almost nothing.  I know it has been hard.  It seems like nothing can be done.  But that is where we are wrong.

             I know this might not be a good analogy, but the thought process remains the same.  When it seemed like all was lost, when nothing could be done to better their way of life, people banned together to overthrow corrupt and oppressive governments, to stop wars they knew they should not be fighting, to change laws they knew to be wrong.  People have banned together since the dawn of man to push the will of the people through.  And this, my friends, is not unlike a bad government.  These major corporations have dictated to us what we are allowed to watch, what we are allowed to be upset about, forced us to conform to what they believe science fiction, geeks, and nerds should be.

             I know this may sound ridiculous for some.  But how long have we allowed this to go on?  How long will we continue to allow this?  How much have we allowed these networks to take from us?  At some point we have to say enough is enough.

             This started out as a network taking away a favorite show.  It is now about how much we are willing to let them take from us before we stand up and stop it.  Sure, we are willing to pay for the things we love.  Who isn’t?  But we are not willing to pay for something to be taken away from us.

             SyFy has decided that science fiction is no longer profitable.  MGM has decided that while Stargate was one of its largest profit makers, the cash flow was not as quick or as large as they would have liked and have allowed corporations like NBCUniversal to push them into a corner, decide for them what they will now produce.  NBCUniversal has decided that YOU are no longer a viable consumer group.  Do you realize how many channels they actually own?  4?  10?  No.  More like 24.  What about movies?  Heard of Universal Pictures?  Or perhaps Focus Features?  Does HULU ring a bell?

              My point here is this.  In America, in many other countries, we have this mentality that because they have more money and own so much, that we cannot force them to change.  But here is the kicker.  Without us, they have nothing.  WE are the ones who make shows popular, generate revenue from advertisements, write the checks to the stars.  The whim of the public is the tide that sails these corporate ships or crashes them into the rocks.

              So when you think that there is nothing that you can do, remember this.  It is those who are willing to stand up to those in power who affect change, not those who decide to do nothing.  Every bit helps.  Every link, post, picture, email, letter, phone call, and idea lends itself to the greater cause.

              I ask all of you to jump back in.  Keep doing what you were doing.  Spread the word.  Post on walls.  Keep the passion we had a few months ago close to your heart!  New campaigns are on the way!  We have come a long way, and I for one am not willing to let it go to waste.  Save Stargate Universe, Save Stargate, Save Science Fiction!  

Suzy     

Grief

Many say that shadows of grief block out the light.

The darkness becomes expansive, oppressive, and bleak.

No sounds to be heard but that of your tears.

No touch to comfort or ease the fears.

The walls close in and there is nowhere to go.

You fight for breath as the black cloud grows. 

Then as soon as it came it surrounds you no more.

The light trickles in and the air begins to flow.

You hear the voices calling in love.

You feel the weight of a caring touch.

The pain will fade.

The memories will ease.

They will still be gone, but you will not be lonely.

In your heart they have a special place.

No one else can take that away.

To Fred, a dear friend who lost his sister. My prayers and thoughts are with you dear friend, as you go through this hard time.  

Dream

My dream floated by today
only to run away
It came back a little later
just to smile and wave
Funny thing with dreams
they tend to come and go
and if we wait to grab them,
well then, we will never know.

Shards

I saw a broken heart today
laying on the floor.
In tiny little pieces
scattered by the door.
It had lost its shimmer
It had lost its shine
And with resignation
I realized it was mine.
Not dropped by another
nor thrown away in hate.
But set down gently
then slowly crushed by pain.
Such a heavy burden
these shards that I now see.
Such a pitiful end for a heart
that once seemed complete.

See

I wish I could gather up all the people of the world
and let them see through only one pair of eyes.
I wonder if then, they would come to realize.
We all hate, we all love.
We all hurt, we all bleed.
That difference is merely a word
which we use to describe others than ourselves.
We are all born and we all die.
We all live and we all question why.
What a magical place this world would be
if we could all see through each others eyes.

The Cloud

                                                   Photo by: Suzanne Phillips

I sit on my cloud
and watch the world go by
I sigh, I moan.
I scream, I cry.

I look at the crowd
but they don't see me.
I wave, I signal.
but still they flee.

On and on do these days go,
sitting alone on my cloud.
I wait, I question.
When oh when can I come down?

Suzy Phillips