Speak Geek!

First of all, I am a geek, a nerd, whatever you want to call be and damn proud of it! #speakgeek!  

 Hello fellow Stargate and Stargate Universe fans.  As you all know, I have been a part of this movement since the start.  We have had bumps in the road, sure, but we have all stuck together.  This is why it saddens me to see the movement slowing to almost nothing.  I know it has been hard.  It seems like nothing can be done.  But that is where we are wrong.

             I know this might not be a good analogy, but the thought process remains the same.  When it seemed like all was lost, when nothing could be done to better their way of life, people banned together to overthrow corrupt and oppressive governments, to stop wars they knew they should not be fighting, to change laws they knew to be wrong.  People have banned together since the dawn of man to push the will of the people through.  And this, my friends, is not unlike a bad government.  These major corporations have dictated to us what we are allowed to watch, what we are allowed to be upset about, forced us to conform to what they believe science fiction, geeks, and nerds should be.

             I know this may sound ridiculous for some.  But how long have we allowed this to go on?  How long will we continue to allow this?  How much have we allowed these networks to take from us?  At some point we have to say enough is enough.

             This started out as a network taking away a favorite show.  It is now about how much we are willing to let them take from us before we stand up and stop it.  Sure, we are willing to pay for the things we love.  Who isn’t?  But we are not willing to pay for something to be taken away from us.

             SyFy has decided that science fiction is no longer profitable.  MGM has decided that while Stargate was one of its largest profit makers, the cash flow was not as quick or as large as they would have liked and have allowed corporations like NBCUniversal to push them into a corner, decide for them what they will now produce.  NBCUniversal has decided that YOU are no longer a viable consumer group.  Do you realize how many channels they actually own?  4?  10?  No.  More like 24.  What about movies?  Heard of Universal Pictures?  Or perhaps Focus Features?  Does HULU ring a bell?

              My point here is this.  In America, in many other countries, we have this mentality that because they have more money and own so much, that we cannot force them to change.  But here is the kicker.  Without us, they have nothing.  WE are the ones who make shows popular, generate revenue from advertisements, write the checks to the stars.  The whim of the public is the tide that sails these corporate ships or crashes them into the rocks.

              So when you think that there is nothing that you can do, remember this.  It is those who are willing to stand up to those in power who affect change, not those who decide to do nothing.  Every bit helps.  Every link, post, picture, email, letter, phone call, and idea lends itself to the greater cause.

              I ask all of you to jump back in.  Keep doing what you were doing.  Spread the word.  Post on walls.  Keep the passion we had a few months ago close to your heart!  New campaigns are on the way!  We have come a long way, and I for one am not willing to let it go to waste.  Save Stargate Universe, Save Stargate, Save Science Fiction!  

Suzy     

Grief

Many say that shadows of grief block out the light.

The darkness becomes expansive, oppressive, and bleak.

No sounds to be heard but that of your tears.

No touch to comfort or ease the fears.

The walls close in and there is nowhere to go.

You fight for breath as the black cloud grows. 

Then as soon as it came it surrounds you no more.

The light trickles in and the air begins to flow.

You hear the voices calling in love.

You feel the weight of a caring touch.

The pain will fade.

The memories will ease.

They will still be gone, but you will not be lonely.

In your heart they have a special place.

No one else can take that away.

To Fred, a dear friend who lost his sister. My prayers and thoughts are with you dear friend, as you go through this hard time.  

Dream

My dream floated by today
only to run away
It came back a little later
just to smile and wave
Funny thing with dreams
they tend to come and go
and if we wait to grab them,
well then, we will never know.

Shards

I saw a broken heart today
laying on the floor.
In tiny little pieces
scattered by the door.
It had lost its shimmer
It had lost its shine
And with resignation
I realized it was mine.
Not dropped by another
nor thrown away in hate.
But set down gently
then slowly crushed by pain.
Such a heavy burden
these shards that I now see.
Such a pitiful end for a heart
that once seemed complete.

See

I wish I could gather up all the people of the world
and let them see through only one pair of eyes.
I wonder if then, they would come to realize.
We all hate, we all love.
We all hurt, we all bleed.
That difference is merely a word
which we use to describe others than ourselves.
We are all born and we all die.
We all live and we all question why.
What a magical place this world would be
if we could all see through each others eyes.

The Cloud

                                                   Photo by: Suzanne Phillips

I sit on my cloud
and watch the world go by
I sigh, I moan.
I scream, I cry.

I look at the crowd
but they don't see me.
I wave, I signal.
but still they flee.

On and on do these days go,
sitting alone on my cloud.
I wait, I question.
When oh when can I come down?

Suzy Phillips

Mom

I saw a miracle today.

One I was not sure I would never see.

I saw my mother walk for the first time in a year.

I saw her take a shower.

I saw her make it into the office to get on the computer.  

Things are getting better.  Lets hope they stay that way. 

Thank You

For every person who told me that things would be alright,
For every person who cared enough to listen,
For every person who took the time to ask if I needed anything,
For every person who made an effort to make me smile.
For every person who understood, accepted, encouraged me.
Thank you.
It is people like you who make the world a better place.
It is people like you who make life easier to live.
There is more beauty in one kind word than in any perfect face.
I am grateful to know each and every one of you.
Some I have met in person, some I have never seen at all.
But your impact on my life is strong, no matter how I know you.
They say that you pick the people in your life that most describe who you are-
or who you want to be.
When the world comes crashing down, do not worry.
There will be a hundred hands to hold it up for you.
When you fall, there will be a soft place to land.
And when things are at their darkest, the light
of all the souls you have touched will guide your way.
I love you all.

Fortune's Fool

Love

A gamble we all take.

Chips on the table- for all to see.

That’s what this is- a game between you and me.

 So I stack the deck and bet on love.

One more card before I check.

There it is- a royal flush.

I win this round.

But what about the next?

You show me gold that turns to dust.

You promise jewels that don’t amount to much.

Deal the cards.

Place your bet.

A perfect hand.

I won again.

Lets go another round.

The more I play the more I might loose.

It wont take long.

Im Fortunes Fool.

Oh Such Careless Souls Are We...

Oh such careless souls are we

To laugh and love so wantonly

When true pain soon comes to be

We shall fall under the weight of certainty

Oh how forgetful are we

To condemn and forgive so shamelessly

When Justice wields her mighty sword

Beneath it we shall bow hypocritically

Oh such simple minds are we

To think that all will come to rights forcefully

And when the Gods above do judge

All shall excuse themselves with stupidity.

The Gods Came Down

The gods came down today,

and asked me, "What is wrong?"

I responded tearfully, "Gods, my love is gone."

"Oh, sweet one, do not fret." said the god next to me.

"Your love is still here, even if you do not see."

With a sobbing breath, I replied mournfully.

"You took him, didn't you?  You took my love from me!"

The gods stared as one, surprised by my grief.

"Why, my dear, it was just out of curiosity."

'You have powers, beauty, and immortality!  Why can you not leave us be!"

I shouted painfully.

"Ah, my darling child," said the gods smug and sure.

"What you have that we do not, is your precious humanity."

"Is that all you want?" I inquired with simplicity.

And took a dagger from beneath my skirt, and fell on it willingly.

With horror they shrieked, their game now but a memory.

All the gods fell to their knees.

"Why, child, did you do that?" they whispered silently.

And from the corner of my eye, I saw movement through the trees.

There stood my love, alive and watching me.

 

At Night

He comes to me at night

Singing a whispered lullaby.

Gently he rocks me to sleep

And gives me peaceful dreams

Oh hateful sun stay hidden from me, I want not your scornful rays

The moon better suits me, its cooling touch calming the seas

which will bring my lover back to me

Upon the watchtower I sit, awaiting his ship

The stones feel like feathers to me, a soft down beneath my hips

The cold wind blows his scent to me, one of sandalwood and mint

I hear his song so clearly now, feel the touch of his lips

He is here inside me, caressing my very soul-

Oh hateful sun please stay hidden just a moment more.......................

Ode to History

How will thou remember me when my bones fade to dust?
A woman of intruige
A shadow lurking in the hall
A cunning mind which paved her destiny
The Queen made of Dreams-
In mine eyes what does thou see?
Love and desire
Hatred and Disgust
An anchor for your wayward ship
Knowledge and courage beyond your imagining
When I speak what does thou hear?
Gaurded laughter that rings so true
Truer to those whom it was your pleasure to use.
Misery and lonliness were my songs to you.What do I see when I look to thee?
Ambition and greed
You are vultures all
A flock of geese swimming toward the duck.
A mystery, the greatest disguise
All are hidden when one does not look.
And when history doth writ mine name what name shall I be called?
A Mistress
A Mother
A Wife
A Queen
A Witch
A Corpse
More Infamous than Thee....
Anne Boleyn, second wife to Henry
Giver of life to not a son, but a Queen.

I Have A Need For Darkness

I have a need for darkness

For morose thoughts and dreary dreams

Come to me-

Deep shadows of the night

And feed this emptiness inside

Take from me this quick sprung hope

And quell these pointless desires

I do not need fulfillment to live

I have no need of anything

Blackest of black come to me now

And whisper in my ear

Drown the sounds of others laughter

And muffle my shedding tears

Do not make me wait yet another day

Veil my sight from light

And entomb me in your sorrow

I have a need for darkness

And darkness has at last enveloped me.

Have I?

                                        Photo By: Suzanne Phillips




Have I, in this day,

 become all that I was meant to be?
Or have I, in the days gone by, 

lost myself to something unrelenting?
Will I, in the days to come,

 remember who I truly was?
Can I, some time from now,

 look back and say I tried?
Who  knows, who cares, 

who every really asked?

Am I, Can I, Will I,

never know, never cared.
Pieces of my past flash up into my head,
Figments of color, weather and sound.
Faces and emotions, things I long to forget,
are held close, so close,

 my past is my future net.